Wednesday, December 13, 2017

UNT base coat - testing

Okay, so here's a real review of the UNT base coat.  Mine came super fast (maybe 3 days?) because it wasn't far away.  So I open up the packaging, looks like any other base coat polish inside of a box.  I just apply right to my nail, no prep.  Obviously it's not going to look great because I have ridges.  First try, it pooled a lot and didn't want to dry so I got uneven coat.  I applied a second coat to spread it out better.  Took a good 5 minutes to thoroughly dry.  Of course this can be sped up with air blowing over it.

 Now for the real test.  Would it peel just like the youtube videos show?  Yes.  Now I don't have a wooden cuticle tool, so my next best option is an x-acto knife.  All of the coating pretty much stayed together as it peeled.  Best way I can describe it is it felt like shrink wrap like you might find on a case that has acrylic, or a new appliance.

 Now it was time to try sanding down my nail smooth and trying another coat.  You can see below how it goes on glossy:

 Seems like a smoother nail dries faster, and of course after it's dry it looks shinier:

Time for polish.  I have a hologram glitter polish I bought a little while back.  I don't typically wear it because it doesn't all remove so easy.  Will it peel?

Here it is half off, peeling away just like the videos show:

And finally, a minute later, here's my nail with all of it removed.  Other than the fact that my nail is smooth from sanding, you would never know I had polish on.  This stuff really works well.

Thursday, December 7, 2017

false nails - ultimate solution?

Ok, so like my last post stated, UNT is the ultimate peel off base coat.  Like this review video shows, there are a LOT of brands, and nearly all of them are basically watered down PVA (elmers glue):

UNT is the only one that is.. something else, perhaps some sort of clear latex?  Anyway, even on amazon, there is no prime.  Seems this comes directly from china, hence the "estimated 2-3 week delivery window".  I don't have the patience, so I ordered a bottle off ebay for $2 less, and an estimated shipping time of one week (may get here sooner).

Anyway, my plan was to put on this base coat, then use nail glue to attach my nails in hopes it will bond between the base coat and the nail strongly, yet I still have the option to peel the base coat off.  I have a crapton of false nails precolored all the way through.  Not painted, molded in a color (I have red, black, purple, neon green, pink).  Go look on ebay, you can buy 100 nails for like 99 cents from china if you don't mind waiting (some USA sellers also sell them this cheap):

Obviously the one downside is they aren't pre-trimmed to length, so you will need a clippers like the salon uses (also cheap), and in my case the thumb nail isn't wide enough so I have to turn mine around so I get the width and cut the shape I need.

Anyway, I decided to try a little experiment tonight:
A. Could I use hot glue to attach a fake nail
B. Would the heat hurt?
C. Would the nail be secure or would it feel like it's been attached by silicone
D. How would it hold up.


A. Yes, hot glue will attach a nail (press and hold for 10-20 seconds)
B. I've done many hot glue projects, and on the skin it doesn't feel very good.  Your nails are pretty protective of the skin underneath, really could barely feel the heat
C. Well I put a small dab on the first try.  Held REALLY good!  So good in fact that it sort of freaked me out when it didn't pop off right away seeing how I still have work tomorrow, but then did after I split it in haste.  The glue came right off my nail, didn't damage my nail, stuck to the artificial nail, but could be easily removed without damaging the artificial nail.  Tried a second application, this time instead of a dot, I made a little circle of glue and held the nail down.  Holding good this time.  I want to wear it a while to see how it holds up.  I do some tasks, in the back of my head I'm thinking worse case scenario if it doesn't pop off, I can trim it back, put on a band-aid, nobody will know it's under there.  After about a half hour, I try the ultimate test.  Run my nail under warm water for 30 seconds.  Dry it off, still holding on.  Try prying it a bit, comes off.

So what does this mean?  Well this might be the best solution for a crossdresser:

A. I can attach nails very quickly (if I prep them for the proper length and sort by size).
B. They are very secure, they feel very attached and stiff
C. If I need to remove them quickly, no acetone needed.  Some warm water, pop right off
D. Since this isn't nail glue, the fake nails won't get ruined.  In theory, they can be re-used over and over.

Wednesday, December 6, 2017

acrylic nails, easy removal with strength??

So the 3M adhesive doesn't seem to be working like it did initially.  I mean it holds pretty good at first, but minimal forces seem to pop them off (and water really does a number on it).

Somehow I stumbled upon something called a "peel able base coat" for nails.  Initially it sounded like it was designed for those that wanted to swap out polish a lot.. put the base coat on, put on the color.. then peel it off (so you don't have to use chemicals to remove the polish).  Well looking around, it appears this can also be used for acrylic nails:

It creates a strong bond between fake nail, and your real nail, without causing damage like glueing directly can.  This isn't just a clear base coat, this is literally a layer that creates a peelable base.  I'm guessing it holds well, but can be finessed off.  Looks like amazon sells this for $12 a bottle, I may have to buy a bottle to try.

Monday, November 20, 2017

sammydress review part 2

Ok so my bottoms came today.  It was a little over a week, though I picked the fastest shipping this time.  The difference between 3-4 weeks versus one week was paying $21 instead of $16.  Not necessarily in a rush, but for $5 it was worth it.

Ok first the skirt.  Fits ok, the lace on the sides is not even laced (like buying shoes from payless).  The ends of the lace are frayed, one side isn't long enough, and I'm not sure it's very flattering on a bigger body.  Not super happy with this choice.

The pants with the flared lace on the bottom are super cute, I could totally see myself wearing them a lot.  Don't even necessarily need heels.

The jumpsuit is interesting, it fits pretty nicely on top, though trying to get it on by yourself is challenging.  I didn't feel like I could possibly zip up the back AND button the top button, so I tried sliding it on with everything up.  Unfortunately the top button popped off, but also cracked. So either I'm going to have to buy a new button, or I need to just sew the ends together.

Wednesday, November 15, 2017


I believe this is the same site I was on a little over a year ago.. Spent a lot of time there the past 2 days.  First night I focused on some trans girl in her mid 20's from Canada.  Guys in the chat kept asking her to show her penis, and she would say "you gotta pay to play", IE I need so many token donations from the room before I'll pop it out.  I actually sort of enjoyed listening to her talk about her life.  She was very cute, very little makeup, very comfortable gym clothes, nothing fancy.  If there wasn't a bulge in the front of her panties I would have said for sure she was female.

The 2nd night I focused on an average looking girl who had a surprising 2,000 viewers in her chat, but it was mostly because she had her cock out and kept stroking it.   Her lighting and camera resolution was very good, when she got close to the camera with her cock you could make out every wrinkle in her balls.  I probably watched her for like 2 hours, sort of mesmerized she could keep her cock hard and not have the urge to climax over the edge.  During the 2nd hour, she had precum dripping the entire time, at one point letting it purposely drip onto the camera and then licking it off.

Why do I bring this up?  I guess I find it intriguing not only watching the girls, but reading all the comments from viewers (and seeing how much they're willing to donate).  Just for kicks, I did create an actual account to look more into it.  So 100 tokens is $11, so figure each token is worth 11 cents.  Most of the girls had a goal of around 2,000 tokens, which would be $220.  That's not bad, but also sort of low considering these are people ON CAMERA EXPOSING THEMSELVES TO THE WORLD.  While a porn star makes that their career, these seem to be people with regular day jobs that do this on the side.  Also not all of them are covered in makeup, so many of them would be recognizable.  Here's another caveat, they aren't getting $220 for a couple hours work.  Chaturbate takes a 40% cut.. yea that's right, almost half your take goes poof (and that's assuming you aren't required to also report your income to the government).  So now it's more like $130 for a night of setting up cameras, getting dressed up, and  masturbating on camera while you beg for tokens and get guilted into thanking every viewer that donates, even if it's 1 token.  I also looked into what it takes to register an account.  I started by putting in a fake name, not realizing that the 2nd step is uploading a photo ID, and then another photo of your face next to a photo ID.  I get why they are required to do this since money is exchanging hands (and may have to report income to your social security number after all), but so much for anonymity.  They might say your ID is safe, but how many websites get hacked ALL THE TIME.  I can just imagine someone getting all the real info (and photo IDs) off the site, and everyone is exposed.

Of course, I'm not sure I would ever want to take the risk of being on camera again.  I mean I get the thrill of being desired, complimented.. but I don't know that I could really disguise myself good enough to feel safe enough that nobody would recognize me.

Monday, November 13, 2017

sammydress review

Ok, so there are probably dozens of "chinese import" clothing companies around now.  Many of them advertise on facebook, or you have a friend that gives them a chance to see if they can get some great clothes at super cheap prices.

So I took the plunge a little over a year ago.  Ordered a dress and a wig as a test run.  Unfortunately, things sell out a lot so all I have is a thumbnail to show this disappointing order.  Each item was less than $10 so I didn't have my hopes up:
The purple dress fit.. ok, but isn't nearly as flattering as the photo shows which is that it's very flowy.  Maybe I didn't order it big enough?  The wig also looks nothing like the photo, it's nowhere near that shiny or thick, it's a very cheaply made costume wig that fits bad, looks bad, and is completely unmanageable to style it.

Fast forward to a month ago, I decide to take another chance since I was going away on vacation for 2 weeks, and knew I would be greeted with a package by the time I came back.  Here is what I ordered this time and was a little more pleased.

The dress was $10, the top was $14 (shipping is something like $12-$15 for 2 week delivery).  Yes it's crazy that shipping is almost much as the merchandise itself, but again I was being cautious after my last order.  In both cases I ordered a 5x knowing that chinese import stuff runs small if you look at any of their charts.  I LOVE lace, I don't think women wear nearly enough of this in this day and age.  Now keep in mind that this stuff is likely made in sweat shops, likely they either have quotas or are getting paid by the garment, so expect stitching to look rushed by machine, and often there will be loose threads hanging towards the end of the stitch so you may have to cut strings off, or sometimes to preserve it from unraveling a quick lighter to fuse the end since most of the materials used is rayon, polyester, or some other cheap material.

Now I will say the dress still felt small at 5x (though it does stretch a lot).  I suppose if I had the right under garments to flare out my hips and butt I would feel ok wearing this so it's a keeper for now.

 Now this top I ABSOLUTELY FUCKING LOVE!  It has lace, it has batwings both in the arms and the bottom cut, it has a plunging neckline, it has a bow tied in the middle, and the cleavage looks amazing with the right bra.

Here's my new dilema, I have almost all dresses and very few bottoms.  To be honest, about the only bottoms I have is a gym workout pair of pants, a couple jean skirts (which I don't feel go real well with this top), and a pair of khaki short shorts that look like something that lara croft from tomb raider might wear.  Early on in life I had a couple of yoga pants with foot straps, but those are long gone (they were cheesy, but I had little taste as a late teen).  So off to sammydress again.

I bought this skirt for $6.50:

I bought these awesome looking pants for $12:

And then this pant suit came up during my bottom search for $13 so I took a chance on it:

When the bottoms come in I'll post another review.

Thursday, October 19, 2017

me too

If you're on facebook, you know what this means.  With the controversy over Weinstein abusing so many women in hollywood (and some of the stories are absolutely horrible), women have decided to use this moment to come out to let the world know they too have been sexually abused in some way.  They say 1 out of 6 women have been abused, which I think is probably low (even though that's still high).  I know my wife has been, and she hasn't posted on facebook because her parents are now on it, and if they saw that they'd immediately be asking her what happened.  So many women are either afraid to come out against their attacker, or fear nobody will believe them, or think it's their fault.

I bring this up not because it's important, or because someone who is fluid gender like me has a more compassionate stance than a lot of men might.  I think about how different my life could have been had I been born a woman.  Would I too have been sexually abused?  Beyond all the hardship that women have to go through already (looked down upon as the lower sex both physically and pay grade), they are also on constant alert of being attacked.

This goes back to my guilt of being transgender.  I get to sort of experience both sides in a way, and picking and choosing the best experience of both.  It's sort of like that movie "soul man" where the lesson he learns about being black is that he can stop taking tanning pills and become white anytime he wants, a real black person doesn't have that option.

Thursday, February 23, 2017

body swap dream.. nothing happened

So this was my dream the other night.  Like most dreams, there's not a lot of setup, and usually things aren't explained, it's sort of known knowledge (like you're being told the story via telepathy).  Anyway, I was at some sort of clinic and they had proposed to me that there was a girl that was looking to body swap with a man (permanently).  For whatever reason, the rules were that neither person swapping could know anything about the other (no medical history, age, height, didn't even know what that person looked like).  The doctor stepped away, and I snuck a peek at her file.  She was half my age, fit and beautiful, I had nothing to lose.  Yet.. even in a dream where it was only temporary,  I couldn't commit to it.  I told the doctor no, and left.  For the rest of the dream I had nothing but regret about what could have been.  For some reason I was also naked (in my male body) in public, and everytime I passed by a reflective surface I looked at my body and didn't like what I saw.  Now that's not to say I hated my gender, I think I hated my out of shape body more than anything, but I did imagine what it would be like in that female body.

Friday, February 3, 2017

trapped in the closet sucks

So a couple things...

First off, with the LGBT rights almost overruled by Trump (ironically his daughter helped save it)

There's been of course a lot of postings on facebook about supporting it.  You have no idea how badly I want to come out and say "hey everyone, the LGBT community you're supporting, I'm one of them!".  I'm not ready to come out, don't know that I ever will be.  Don't think anyone really knows where their life will take them.

Secondly, I was at the goodwill today.  I'm going on a business trip and I wanted to get a few more casual shirts so it's usually my goto.  I was checking out, and the cashier next to the one I was at sounded clearly like a man (perhaps a slight twang, like might have been gay).  I look over, and it looked like a woman without makeup (hair tied back, femme face, plump lips, etc etc).  Now if I had to guess, it's either a gay man that happens to have those features (drag queens are often gay men that happen to fit the role), or it's someone that's secretly transitioning that hasn't crossed over.  All I could think about is how badly I wanted to see him in drag.  I know that sounds weird, but I was so curious what he looked like as a woman.

Thursday, January 19, 2017

another partial femme last night - nails (ratings?)

So the wig / shoes didn't last long last week.  Even my flats are killing my feet now for some reason?  Did my feet grow?  The wig felt silly with nothing else on...

So last night I was on my computer downstairs while my wife was in bed with a cold.  I had a baggie of semi-short french manicure nails sitting on my end table.  I do a lot of craft work, so it's not unusual for there to be various supplies like double sided tape.  I know I blogged about the really strong 3M stuff for applying nails, but I'm getting low so I grabbed a roll of some similar tape (no idea when or where I bought it).  Didn't work quite as well, but probably 90% as good adhesion (and much thinner).

I really missed this.  Looking back, I realized that every item you put on have their femme rating (at least in my eyes).  What I mean by that is how strong of a female pull does it have?  Could I imagine a guy wearing this?  Would he look silly, or could he pull it off?

* dress - Almost no men wear dresses.. If it has lace, or femme colors like pink or purple, this can have some serious pull.. probably an 8 or 9 out of 10.
* heels - I'd say these pull a good 8 or 9.  Yes, men wore heels and fancy shoes in the 1800's, but modern heels with shiny leather and the shape, they are fairly unmistakably femme
* hair - depends on the style.  I think long curls can really say "woman", but then rock stars often have that hair.  I'd say this rates maybe a 7 or 8
* hosiery - If they are very translucent, and perhaps you shaved before putting them on, these can have a pretty good pull (ESPECIALLY if they aren't plain and have a design in them).  I'd give them an 8 or 9 for the latter
* nails - easily a 9 or 10.  Men are pretty adamant about keeping nails short, and dull.  You have long nails, with polish (or french manicure) and they are shiny and smooth, it just screams woman.  If you shave the back of your hand, and just take a photo of the hand (so long as you don't have veins popping out), very hard to tell if it's a man's hand.

Friday, January 13, 2017

easing back into crossdressing

So while normally I go from one extreme to the other, for some reason I don't feel like going through the work of getting dressed up.  It could be because I've been on a self pleasuring binge this week.  So right now I'm just wearing a wig and some low comfortable heels.  I tried to wear my uncomfortable (but cute heels), and I lasted maybe 3 minutes before they felt like hell.

I figure if I don't at least try wearing a couple items, I'll just never do it at all, and I know that won't make me happy.  We'll see if I can keep it up.