Thursday, May 21, 2020

TG dreams - 2 nights in a row

This pandemic is making me have bizzarre dreams, but sometimes those dreams are nice.

Dream One: I was completely dressed up and on a date.  My date had no idea I was trans.  Then we ended up going by my work (which wasn't actually my work) but there was an issue with some paperwork.  My work didn't know I was trans so I had to use my male voice to explain to my co-workers what was wrong so they knew it was me.  It was at that point my date bailed, and I was like "really? that's what turned you off?"

Dream Two: I was hanging out with friends at the white house, and the dream implied that I was the first lady (but I knew I wasn't a woman) which made it weirder.  I was dressed as myself, but I found myself keep wanting to explore the wardrobe.  When I finally did, my friends started to leave.  The dressing room was gigantic with the most incredible dresses, shoes, and jewelry.  Over and over I kept questioning if I could dress up and pull this off.

Monday, May 4, 2020

short TG dream last night / coronavirus masks

So I dreamt last night that I was sitting in a lazy-boy chair in a living room.  I was aware there were other people in the room but don't remember who they were.  Some woman was wanting to test some lipstick, and she scanned the room, and walked over to me (I'm guessing because I had the fullest lips).  I let her do it without questioning it whatsoever.  She walked away, and then suddenly in the dream I was walking to some appointment.  There was lots of stone and stairways, and I felt subconscious about walking around as a dude with lipstick on.  I saw a group of people coming so I hid behind a wall and starting looking at youtube videos on my phone.  As a group of girls passed by, one turned towards me and asks "What's your name?".  I wasn't sure if she was curious who I was, or if she did that on purpose to out me.  As I began to speak, two things went through my mind.
1. I hadn't practiced a female voice
2. I couldn't come up with one of my female persona names

So I ended up just sort of letting out a "baaa guhhh", and then she turned away and continued walking along.

So this brings up my next point.  We've been in isolation for about 6 weeks, and I've been wearing a mask in public for probably the past 3-4 weeks for my own safety and others (but it's been mandated as of the beginning of the month).  This was brought up on fetlife (not like I haven't had this thought myself).  With the 6-foot rule, plus everyone wearing masks (and everyone generally trying to avoid each other), and the likeliness of being confronted is VERY low, it would seem that right now is a perfect time to try crossdressing in public.  You're 6 feet from everyone, half your face is covered (so not only are you not recognizable but you're covering the part of your body that's likely the least female), plus with a mask your speech is going to tend to be muffled so even speaking is sort of helped by this).  I almost feel like if I don't take advantage of this time I'm missing out.