So I'm pretty sure I masterbated on Sunday, but I can't be sure. Sometimes I do it on such a regular schedule it becomes about as memorable as having a bowel movement that day. So last night I was sure I was going to at least finish one of my tg stories, but I didn't. I probably have a couple dozen unfinished stories that I've never published. I feel like my stories are never good enough, never complete enough, and usually after a couple pages I lose interest because it isn't going as good as I hoped. I also didn't masterbate, I worked. I have somewhat of a side business, and I'm getting a little backed up on jobs at the moment. Rather than having fun, I decided to focus on work and I'm sort of glad I did because it kept my mind off of it. I'm also finding that earning a 2nd income can be as addicting as any other reward in life, whether it be a sugarary treat, sex, getting to watch a movie you've been excited about, etc.
I still feel that having this double life really gets in the way of life. While most people just have to deal with one gender, one focused sexuality, I have to deal with both sides. Yes sometimes this can be fun, but it can also be very draining floating between the two.
So then the next morning comes, I'm getting ready for work, perfect opportunity to masterbate. Didn't do it at my computer, perhaps I'll do it in the shower. Nope, got busy, started to run late, didn't have time to. I did however slip into one of my favorite white laced panties from fredericks of hollywood underneath my work clothes. I can't remember the last time I did that, but it was certainly enjoyable. I probably had an erection nearly the entire drive to work, and all day I got teased by the lace rubbing it down there. So while at work I had the thought of random video chat. The first thing that comes to mind is chat roulette, or omegle (same one that youtubable uses to chat with random people, sometimes while dressed as a girl). But I thought to myself.. I don't want to talk to the general public, is there a random chat (or categorized chat) specific to LGBT, or more specifically crossdressers? So far it looks like chatville is my best bet, and there's a TS room. Few look to be ladies that do it on multiple sites for tokens, some look like they're just enjoying being flirted by admirers. So tonight I did shave down there.. I was half tempted to dress up, but my only option at the moment is stealing my wife's laptop with the built-in cam. For one, I don't want any history on her computer I was on some video chatsite. And two, I want to be able to control what the camera is allowing others to see (IE perhaps only pointing down at my crotch, or pointing at my body but cutting off part of my head). That's sort of hard to do on a laptop when the camera is fixed and the keyboard is as well. So I ordered an HD webcam on amazon, it gets here thursday. Will I be brave enough to go on camera?
I still feel that having this double life really gets in the way of life. While most people just have to deal with one gender, one focused sexuality, I have to deal with both sides. Yes sometimes this can be fun, but it can also be very draining floating between the two.
So then the next morning comes, I'm getting ready for work, perfect opportunity to masterbate. Didn't do it at my computer, perhaps I'll do it in the shower. Nope, got busy, started to run late, didn't have time to. I did however slip into one of my favorite white laced panties from fredericks of hollywood underneath my work clothes. I can't remember the last time I did that, but it was certainly enjoyable. I probably had an erection nearly the entire drive to work, and all day I got teased by the lace rubbing it down there. So while at work I had the thought of random video chat. The first thing that comes to mind is chat roulette, or omegle (same one that youtubable uses to chat with random people, sometimes while dressed as a girl). But I thought to myself.. I don't want to talk to the general public, is there a random chat (or categorized chat) specific to LGBT, or more specifically crossdressers? So far it looks like chatville is my best bet, and there's a TS room. Few look to be ladies that do it on multiple sites for tokens, some look like they're just enjoying being flirted by admirers. So tonight I did shave down there.. I was half tempted to dress up, but my only option at the moment is stealing my wife's laptop with the built-in cam. For one, I don't want any history on her computer I was on some video chatsite. And two, I want to be able to control what the camera is allowing others to see (IE perhaps only pointing down at my crotch, or pointing at my body but cutting off part of my head). That's sort of hard to do on a laptop when the camera is fixed and the keyboard is as well. So I ordered an HD webcam on amazon, it gets here thursday. Will I be brave enough to go on camera?
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